Friends,

Approximately, eight years ago, I experienced what The Mental Health System labels as a Breakdown & subsequently, diagnosis as Depression & Anxiety & PTSD (C-PTSD) & ADHD & Obsessive-  Compulsive Disorder & Dissociation.

Poem:  When All Went Dark is Reflective of The Moment My Mind Went Dark.

When All Went Dark

The Time

The Moment

Though Unknown

Ought to have

Been For-Seen

Through

The Logic of

The Minds

Vast

Programming

Structuring

My Being

Over

The Time Frame

One Scenario

Layered

Upon

The Other

One Unkind Word

At a Time

Compounded

The Depth of

Unkind Thoughts &

Build Beliefs

Supporting 

The Words

Heard Before

Creating

A Profile of

Self

An identity

Rooted in

All sorts of

Unkind

Eager Mind

Imputing &

Integrating

The Information 

Available to

Self

Programming

The Subconscious 

Mind

Operating within

The Parameters

Set-Up

Within

The Busy Mind

Attempting to

Make 

Sense of

Senseless

Suffering

Seek

Solutions to

All Sorts of

Unkind

Endlessly 

Running

Survival Skills

Unable to

Rest

Even 

A Moment

Demanding

One are- IN Charge

From

Over-Drive to

Survive

Time

Offered

No Refuge

Life

Appeared

Fast Forward

The Mind

Tried to

Keep-Up

Mind

Striving to

Survive

Within

Pursuit of

More…

More to Do

More to Achieve 

More to Aquire

More & 

More

Never

Satisfied 

Believing

One

Must

Earn

Worth &

Love

The Busy Mind

Created

The Busy Self

Exhausting

The Body

Communicating 

Symptoms

Ignoring

The Signs

Disconnecting

Unaware

The Heart

Locked up

The Feelings as 

Keepsakes

Irony

The Mind

Seemed

Certain

Salvation &

Solution

External to

Self

Reached

Through

The Goals 

Set in Life

Within

A Brief Moment

Life

Seemed 

Working

Just Fine

Self

Seemed

Hopeful to

Rest Awhile

Enjoy

The Benefits of

Goals Achieved

Seeing

Success

Within

Things

Sadly

Unaware 

Balance in Life

Most Rare

The Mind

Unprepared

Not Build to

Withstand 

The Damage of

Pain

The Mind

The Highly Functioning 

Structure

Unable to

Sustain such

Great Demand

Processing

Layers of

Pain

One Day

The Unthinkable 

Did Occur

The Mind

Suffered 

A Break-Down

The Circuits 

Overloaded &

Shorted

Through

Complex &

Compounded

Layers of 

Inner-Pain

Briefly

The Mind

Aware 

The Severity of

The Situation 

Seen

Circuits within

Display

Thundering

Light Storm

Than…

Nothing…

Darkness

Set-In

The Moment

The Mind went

Dark &

Broke-Down

 HonorataHonor 

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